chad, im speechless, i cant even imagine what youre going through. i have a little brother whom i treat as my own son, he is like what you explained your son as, he always calls me zukiman, and he wants to grow up to be a zuki man, and sometimes i think * i just want him to have a tank, so he will be the safest of all* im sure you guys know what i mean.
he works with me also.
zukibrother, i dont cry much, just ask my family members about that, but as i am typing this, i cant hold the tears back. im truly sorry. but keep faith, he is carrying you.